I'm alright don't worry about me.

Hotspot.....easier said then done, but it's good to hear from you..

Thanks Shannon.

Earlier today I was brought the largest balloon bunch I have ever seen. I think Jedidiah and Mike have a secret balloon factory or something.

I'll be discharged hopefully in a few days. I'll then spend some more time mending an resting with a very pretty and sexy nurse tending to any needs. It's going to be rough.

Good to hear you are doing ok.....but you better not be one of those difficult patients for your pretty and sexy nurse.

I wonder if Jedidiah and Mike stole those balloons from Malign from the b-day party...he hasn't been around much to guard his supply...maybe Mike sent Domino a a mission....

Hello Everyone,

I hope no one minds my barging in.

I had to laugh when I read your reply to my husband Shannon. I am not certain but I do think men in general are horrible patients. If he remains in bed like he needs to, than he should be discharged on Thursday. It is then that I really will have my hands full attempting to keep him in rest mode.

Where have the boys gone? I would like to thank you for the calls, cards and gifts which you sent. They were quite thoughtful and brought us both smiles.

Fondly,

Mrs. Hotspot

I am here only been working a lot. I am happy to see you Mrs Hotspot. It makes me happy to hear you guys liked the balloons and stuff. Mike and I were not sure what to send but we wanted to send something. A little of everything appeared fitting for a great guy like Hotspot.

It is nice to see you also Shannon and I hope you are feeling better. Are things going any better for you? I do not want to pry but I care.

Luna, how is the new job going for you? Are you settling in?

I had a lot of fun choosing balloons and treats for Hotspot. I did not know there are websites entirely for sending gifts like balloon bouquets, candies and chocolate covered fruits an pretzels. I helped choose the balloons which came in many many different varieties. I think we sent every sport ball theme available and also a cartoon dog head, smiley face, several get well. 3 colored latex balloons were added free with every themed Mylar balloon ordered. Mike took care of the ordering part.

Mike asked me to let you know he is thinking about you. He is not doing well with everything going on with his father. I feel bad that I can not do more for him. Mike has really become a good friend of mine. It upsets me to see anyone hurting but it is a lot worse when it is someone I care so, greatly about. He has taught and shown me so, many things over the past several months. I am lucky to have met him here.

Shannon, Mike is in the middle of creating another blog off of this website. Some people have still been harassing him through private messages. They selfishly and rudely blame him for some people like Linda and yourself not posting as often among other things. I think when he started this blog it was thought to be a quiet place for us all to regroup to than eventually return to the main forum. He never felt like returning and this special spot appeared more helpful and without biased drama.

This site is upsetting him more than it is helpful which is why he decided to start another blog. Will you be joining us for posting when he, myself and hopefully Hotspot move? I do not mean to not come here any longer at all, I only mean to join in the new blog? I would miss you if you did not. I would also hope Luna would join us. She has been really helpful and caring to me. Malign does not talk to us anymore. I am not sure what any of us did to him. Mike asked me to not bother him however, it upsets me to not know what happened.

Mrs. Hotspot...I love it that you barged in, it is good to hear from you and I definately wish you the best when Hotspot gets discharged.

Elijah....Im sorry to hear Mike is hurting and also getting harassed...I don't understand it all that people would pick on him for me and Linda not posting anymore or as much..for me I think its just I don't feel the need as much...It helped me during the dark of winter, since the days are longer and also the fact I feel I have developed more personal connections such with you guys and other friends....so for me posting in the forums feels a bit repeatative...I just keep getting the same suggestions over and over again , just from different people...and like I said, my moods seem to improve during the spring and summer months and I am more physically active.....wishing all the best....ps yes I would probably follow you guys anywhere.

Well I'm still alive. I'm really tired of resting but I am trying to be good and stick to doctors orders. It's nice a few of my boys have read me stories. My wife has been making all my favorites to eat.

Anyway, I'm looking forward to moving away from this site altogether. I'm all packed and ready to go!

Shannon, I wish your mood could be better all year instead of only during the warmer months. I am happy you feel safe and supported around us mainly guys in this section.

I do not know why some out there choose to dwell on past disagreements. I have to admit it upsets me more than it does Mike. He told me he simply "deletes the trash from losers", which is a wise choice instead of interacting in any way with them. Moving to another blog website once Mike has it going in my opinion will be a lot better. I am glad you will continue to chat with all of us where ever it might be. I enjoy having you be a part of our mini group. Mike plans on transferring, adding all of our posts from here to the new place that way nothing will be lost.

I really enjoy reading and spend a lot of my time doing so. I use to read every single post made however, I do not do that any longer. I find too much of it redundant and I do not like how new members are treated.

I have been working a lot which is nice since it had been months without being able to. Mike has been really busy with all of his jobs. He's been driving the limousines and party hummer for all the Prom and wedding customers. I am not sure when he sleeps. He still drives the bus for the seniors and works at the cemetery. A lot of renovations at his house are happening. He sent me a photo of his backyard which looked a lot like a disaster. He is having the pool and new cinder block like fence put in. The construction people took everything away and dirt piles are all over. His new deck looks really nice. He invited me for the first swim in his pool which should be ready by mid June. He jokes me about getting something called floaties for me because I do not know how to swim.

Hotspot and I have been playing a lot of online chess together. Hotspot's family is taking great care of him. It pleases me to hear all about his family. I do not hear a lot of good things about other's families. Families out in the world are so, incredibly different than anything I learned during my youngin years.

The host family I reside with are decent loving people but even they tend to put family down the list of everything else they do daily. They have been asking me often if I have decided to return home. I am closer to deciding than I have ever been. I will be unhappy about all that I will lose. It hurts knowing how many my choice will also hurt.

Hi Elijah..ya, the family issues people have sometimes gets to me too...I am fortunate, I had very loving parents who taught me good values as well as common sense and the "golden rule" things that seem to be missing now a days. I think, I know because of them and the way the raised and nurtured me is why I am able to survive all that I have and not become bitter towards live despite the extreme downfalls..I guess I am one of the lucky ones. I suppose thats why it hurts so bad to discover my aunts behavior is what it is.

Shannon, I read your post about having found someone for yourself. What a wonderful and so, needed experience for you right now. I have read over the months about your struggles, as well as talked with my husband about your stick with it courageous spirit. It is marvelous and I believe fitting for you to have found such a special friend, which can be right there with you and for you! We are wishing you the very best with this relationship.

Jedidiah and Mike, you both have been working quite diligently yet throughout doing so, you have both managed to help keep Hotspot's mood elevated. Hotspot considers the both of you his special friends and strongly enjoys your youthful excitement. I appreciate your assistance with one of thee worst patients. Hotspot is healing however, he will not be cleared to return to work for several weeks. All of our boys are enjoying having him around a lot more.

Jedidiah, you mention you've become closer to knowing your ultimate decision, may I ask which you've chosen?

btw I can picture you wearing a pair of floaties.

Please be careful at that first swim.

Fondly,

Mrs. Hotspot

Way to go Shannon with getting a companion. I am so, happy that you found someone that makes you feel good. Perhaps sometime you could tell more about him?

It is nice to (see) you kind of Mrs Hotspot. I really wish there were more I could do to help out Hotspot. He and Mike have been great to me in many ways beyond what I could have ever imagined beginning at a website. It is too bad Shannon lives so, far away.

In time I will answer your question Mrs. Hotspot but for now I respectively decline doing so, in this not entirely private arena.

Something is troubling me a bit and I have not said anything about it because I was not sure how to word it per say. I honesty no longer care if it sounds offensive. Those of you that have come to know me will understand this is not how I usually act or think. I know this is Mike's blog and we have all been invited to take part. I also was made aware early on that moderators could read the blog postings even without being invited. In the essence of safety and basic control these concepts sound alright.

However, besides our moderator Domino, Luna and malign whom are actual moderators of the site have been reading and at times a part in the postings here. To me this sounds like more than adequate "patrolling". To my knowledge there has not ever been a problem or problems occurring in here to warrant the need for other non visible moderators to be also reading what is clearly deemed a private area. I find them doing so, invasive and really rude. I will only speak for myself again however, I know this is one of the reasons Mike is choosing to move the blog off of the site altogether. I sincerely appreciate the effort and time that must go into patrolling said site but I think there should be basic respect given and not intruded upon. I have stopped talking about some things because of this obvious invasion and I have been in on chat discussions with Mike and Hotspot stating the same.

To me this is a large site with many areas to patrol but I feel some have taken the patrolling "duties" too far. Making a place that began as a refuge into now a place of unknown lurking an trolling (not sure if I have used those terms correctly) hopefully my thoughts are clear.

I no longer felt safe posting out in the forums and was thankful to be invited to join this blog. I really do not feel safe posting in this blog any longer. I do not want to upset my friends by asking or commenting about issues they do not want invisible readers to be seeing. I am finding it difficult to remember what I can and should not write about. For me this becomes draining and almost impersonal. The closeness I have with several of you is what makes me feel good, it is what I find helpful. The atmosphere of being able to ask or say almost anything without reprieve is what I have found alluring.

I understand these are my impressions and problems. Perhaps though it will explain why it is I have not been posting as I once had. I am happily looking forward to a place where we once again can post about everything an truly feel and know we are among friends.

mrs hotspot barg in anytime you want you are good lady wanna ask do you read a lot of the postins on the forum? if you do have you read about all the pedaphile ones? what do think about those Oh and Im not kidding gonna get jedidiah floaties hes right my backyard looks like disaster area its comin along though I knew ti was gonna be major overhaul seein it is different story Domino is feelin a little misplaced I feel bad about that his backyard isnt his right now I dont want him gettin hurt so have not let him out there to play in weeks I take him to park to romp around but he is use to bein spoiled with yard to romp around in Oh and I went to sears like you sugested they do have nice not million dollar patio furniture I picked out nice set Im gonna have to put it together but it looked real nice and was comfy in store I also went to that pool store think I got almost every inflatable they had cant wait to see shamu floatin around or my 48 inch beach ball I also got the basketball hoop I so wanted with those online coupons you helped me find I paid lots less for everything

did I read right shannons got herself a special friend? whoo hoo I wish too that you didnt live so far away Id invite you to come for bbq and swim soon its not huge pool didnt want it to take over yard but its gonna be nice and one side is gonna be real deep with medium sized slightly windy slide

its a lot to take in for me so many things ive wanted and worked hard for to get comin true a lot more has to be done around here still but it is way nice to know its all mine and I hope I can enjoy it once all done

my shrink thinks Im doin too much that I should take break that Im doin so many things to keep from other stuff but he is older guy think he forgets Im not

Jedidiah Im sorry I think my response to what you had said last week could have been done better ya know I suck at sayin stuff lots of times I didnt like what I heard but it wasnt shock for while now felt like whats being said here aint stayin here

Am a little slow gettin the Blog up Im sorry there are tons of Blog sites out there but wanted to take time to really find out the differences and what one I like the best and thats been around has the most options stuff like that Ive narowed it down to 3 choices based on ease of use longjevity and real personlized options I like the ones where you can change themes and skins besides just colors and fonts sizes loads of emoticons can add pics videos without headaches or need for other hostin and privacy options that are really that

It is busy time of year with all the events I chauffeur for also awesome cash makin time with regular pay and some real generous tips my old people are doin good drivin them around is almost like break of the days

oh shannon did you get your webcam workin yet? I know your busy but when we go to new blog there is option for us all to webcam chat it would be nice if you could do with us

webcam, hmmm, Im sure Crystal, mom's caregiver can she me how, she's like a daughter to me..just don't know what I would do without that girl.

Good to hear from you Mike. Sounds like you have been busy, both you and Elijah.

Thanks for checking in with us Mrs. Hotspot. Its great to talk with you. Yeah I hang in there the best I can..it helps that I find inspiration in my mothers spirit..doctors, nurses are amazed with her, despite being bedridden for ten years and suffering from MS, she continues to have a happy attitude and actually pretty healthy for someone in her condition, I wish all of you could meet her.

I am taking it slow with this special man. I feel I must keep my mother a priority right now. He has been patient and supportive. And if he is truly the one for me he will continue to be patient. My outlook lately has been positive....despite the house falling apart around, lol. Im am going to contact my local community action to see if there in any help to repair the oil furnace, otherwise next winter is going to be a cold one. So many things on the list, ugh.

I have been taking advantage of mom's good days lately and getting much needed sleep..Im sure that has been helping me with my positive outlook

I am also becoming an activist once more in my life..been telling mom's story to my Congressman about our healthcare situation. Asking him which way I need to go to continue the fight! He has an office here in my town so hopefully I will be hearing back from him.

Wishing the best to everyone.

I think it is great that you are trying to get to know someone that understands your needs Shannon. I also hope that your speaking with others about the situation you are in caring for your mother leads to being given the help needed. I think often about how if you lived where I was brought up it all would be entirely different.

Thanks Jedidiah, yes I am constantly leaning on my friends for support and comfort. I have been seeing them a little more frequently when out at the stables which good cause I was feeling a little shut off from them for awhile. Mom has been pretty stable for days and I have been taking advantage of that and getting more rest. I know its sad that we do not have a community that rallys around a member. There was a time when I was a child that our little community was close nit..but people have moved on and it is strange me to have neighbors that are not interested in getting to know each other. Sometimes when I wave or greet them some even look at me as if I was from another planet.

Jedidah I also posted on Mikes blog about moving. I hope it makes sense, but when you blamed yourself for people getting and your concern that I may be upset by it all ... I had to post. I hope everyone is ok. I felt that I needed to be supportive..especially for Mike. Has opened his life up a little more which is obviously difficult for him. I don't think it is right that he should be silenced or anything like that for expressing himself, no good can come from that. We all need the ability and safety to express ourselves..I mean really how else can we get feedback and support...

I am sorry to butt in and interrupt, but my cat is dead. He climbed onto my neighbour's property and their vicious dog killed him. I just heard. He has been missing for 3 nights and I phoned to ask if they had seen him. I am just sobbing and sobbing. My little Mickey. He will never miaow for food and do all the other things he did again. It's the 5th cat the damn @$^&%$#$ dog has killed. I am desperately sad for my Mickey. I love him so much. I thought he had just wandered off a bit but he was dead, killed. I didn't even get to hold him and bury him. My little Mickey. How can they keep this dog? I am crying so much. My sweetest little Mickey ... :)

Oh Luna, how horribly sad. I'm very sorry you lost your beloved kitty Mickey and in such a vile an preventable manner. To have such an irresponsible dog owner cause you such pain is outrageous.

jesus Luna that is so so sad and distgusting Im really sorry this happened to your beloved puddy cat I consider furry animals better than lots of people and to have a family member which is what I think the furry kids are taken away and in such a heartless tragic way I hurt for you I know Mickey knew how much you loved him and would have done anything possible to keep him from being hurt Some people really just suck and think of no one but themselves and to hear you say this isnt the only carnage done by their dog its so iressponsable There are no words good enough least that I have to make this any better Id still give his essence like funeral memorial like maybe with some of hs favorite toys and buried with flowers in a special spot in the yard he liked or something even though there aint no way youll forget him maybe doin something like nice service for him would make you feel a little better and able to say goodbye telling him about everything you loved about him and how your time with him is cherrishhed

I am sorry sorry Luna to hear of this tragedly to Mickey...I love my furry family so much I can't bare the thought of loosing them..Recently I made the difficult choice in retiring my mare, Charm due to that fact that the tendons and ligaments are detoriating in her back legs..the vet told me it is only going to get worse in time..so I retired her before she experiences any pain what so ever...she seems to be enjoying her retirement and getting extra attention..vet gave me so herbal stuff to help strengthen what she has left..but I know that someday in the future as she starts to experience pain I will have to make a difficult decision. I like Mike's idea of taking some of Mickeys favorite things having them buried with flowers...that would be beautiful...take care Luna.

Thank you so much, people, it means a lot. I keep thinking of all his little ways and funny things he would do and his special miaows. I got him as a little runt from the SPCA - he was so tiny, I named him after Mickey Mouse. He went ecstatic over catnip and would roll around in joy. Somehow I feel so sad I didn't even get to bury him, or hold him after he died, to say goodbye. The little memorial service is a good idea. My sweet little Mickey. Sorry I am going on about him, but all I have left is the memories. Thanks for listening.

Luna..go on about him all you need...you are among people here who love their animals. They bring joy, comfort and unconditional love into our lives. They help us heal through bad things. My heart goes out to you.

I do not understand why you are thinking you are interrupting. I am so, sorry for what happened to Mickey. I have to agree with Shannon, in thinking Mike's suggestion of having a memorial goodbye type ceremony could be helpful. I am wishing you solace.

Thank you, Jedidiah. I just felt I was interrupting as there was a conversation going and without continuing with it, I just burst in with my sad news. That's why.

I keep having weeps about this. I keep hearing a little noise and thinking he's coming in the window or is in the kitchen or he is sauntering in from the garden. He must be somewhere, I just can't find him.