i'm stuck because i have nowhere happy to go. i spend monday-friday in college. i hate it there. then i come home friday evening til sunday. and i hate it here too. and i have to work too which i hate aswel. see, i hate everything. that's how stupid i am. and there's nothing i can do about any of it because i'm stuck.

Oh, i see,

College is difficult for you right now hun, but give it a chance, you will soon meet some cool people, and make friends. Then things will become more bearable.

Work, well its a neccessary evil, boring as heck, but the job that you have now, is only temporary till you finish your studies,

I know its difficult hun.

But it will be worth it in the long run.

Were all here for you Blossom,

Chin up

coz your a

Biggg brave Dogggg

Here's a wand that makes everything purple and swirly...

too bad magic wands aren't real:(

things aren't going to get better. when i say i hate college i mean that i HATE it. it makes me want to kill myself. i have given it time. i hate having to pretend to my family that i LOVE college. because i don't. i HATE it. but i can't tell them because they'll shout at me for wasting their money. then i'll be a big disappointment. oh wait... i'm already a big disappointment. i can either stay in college and be miserable or drop out of college and work in the most depressing shop in the world. i don't know what to do. things aren't getting better. everyone else has settled into college. i havn't. everyone else has friends. i don't. i can't make friends. i don't have the energy to make friends. i can't do anything anymore. i'm so tired. let me die?

hey blossom, no dying please.

maybe you could look for a job on campus? Maybe you wouldn't hate a different job and than you could avoid coming home on weekends?

there are no jobs on campus. and i can't quit my job. and i have to come home at the weekends.

sorry blossom. maybe just try to distract yourself as much as possible, not think so much about how much everything sucks.

HEY BLOSSOM

HEY STAR,

YOU STILL SAD BLOSSOM ?

maybe i'll go to bed soon and hopefully i won't wake up. everything and everyone would be better off that way. i'm sorry i'm being a pain. i don't mean to be. i just can't help it. hi jj yeah i'm still sad.

hi Jj

you're not a pain blossom, you're in pain, I just don't have any words of wisdom

But, I do care, just don't know how to help, I'm sorry blossom

But I do believe one day things will be better, and I know that your dying isn't the solution.

it's ok starry. i'm just in a stupid mood. don't listen to me.

HEY BLOSSOM,

THERE IS NO WAY THAT YOU CAN EVEN CONSIDER DYING. THAT ISNT EVEN AN OPTION FOR YOU.

HOW CAN WE HELP ?

YOU ARE NOT IN A STUPID MOOD IF THAT IS HOW YOUFEEL. FEELINGS ARE IMPORTANT. AND SO ARE YOU, TO MANY PEOPLE, ESPECIALLY ALL YOUR FRIENDS HERE.

WHAT CAN WE DO TO HELP ?

Jj

It's a mood, but it's not stupid. But moods pass, maybe tomorrow something great will happen, who knows. But I am listening, that's the least I could do.

thanks guys. my moods never pass. i don't want to go back to college tomorrow, that's what's wrong with me. if things don't get better soon dying will be an option.

THATS OK BLOSSOM

YOU DONT HAVE COLLEGE TOMORROW

TOMORROW IS SUNDAY

THINGS WILL GET BETTER HUN, MAYBE IN ONLY SMALL WAYS AT FIRST, BUT THEY WILL GET BETTER.

DYING HUN, WELL ITS JUST NOT AN OPTION FOR YOU, YOU HAVE TOO MUCH TO LIVE FOR.

BUT SULKING, THATS A GOOD OPTION, SULKING IS MUCH BETTER, AND IT DOSNT HURT YOU.

HOW CAN WE HELP BLOSSOM ?

i can't be helped. dying is an option for me. it's always an option because i have nothing to live for. i have to move back down to my house tomorrow and i don't want to.

DYING IS SO PERMINANT, YOU HAVE TO ATLEAST GET YOUR TATOOS DONE FIRST.

AND COLLEGE WILL GET EASIER

AND IF YOU HATE WHERE YOU LIVE AT THE MOMENT THAT MUCH WHY NOT MOVE ?

YOU COULD LOOK ROUND FOR ANOTHER HOUSE SHARE.

that's the problem i don't want to live anywhere i don't think. noone wants me so what's the point? and college will not get easier. i know that so there's no point in pretending it'll get better because it won't. it's getting worse not better.

SO YOU ARE GOING TO GIVE UP ?

WHY ?

YOU ARE BLOSSOM

YOU ARE A

BIG BRAVE DOGGG

YOU CANT GIVE UP, FIGHT

FIGHT FOR THINGS TO GET BETTER

WE WILL HELP YOU THE BEST WE CAN

IF NO ONE WANTS YOU, THEN TRY AND MAKE IY ON YOUR OWN, BUT IM SURE THAT THERE ARE SOME PEOPLE THAT WANT YOU, YOUR JUST UPSET AND CANT SEE IT AT THE MOMENT.

JUST DONT GIVE UP, KEEP FIGHTING FOR THE LIFE YOOU WANT.

WERE HERE FOR YOU HUN. OK

thanks Jj

yeah i'm ready to give up.

because i'm tired of living.

i don't have any fight left.

fighting gets me nowhere anyway.

i don't want to be on my own. i'm already on my own. i want to belong somewhere real but that's not going to happen obviously.

whats happened today blossom, you know for your feelings to get this intense ?

i know you get your lowper and hyper days the same as i do, buut your not normally this low.

Has something happened ?

no nothing happened. i'm just stuck. and tired of hating everything about my life.

i feel ike that most days too

i'm sorry Jj. i hope i'm not making you sad too.. don't listen to me i'm just feeling very negative right now. i hope you're ok.