i'm not going to college today.

i'll stay home and be even more of a nobody than i already am.

who cares anyway.

i don't want to live anymore. i'm a bad person and a waste of space. i'm tired of trying to "get better".

it doesn't work. it's impossible.

i'm too screwed up so no way will i ever get better.

i'm just in everyone's way. taking up space. i should be killed. or else tortured. i should just shut up.

this sucks.

i can't get rid of this feeling.

i'm afraid i'm going to do something stupid because i don't think i have any conrol over myself.

i don't know what to do.

i'm going on a diet:mad:

i'm sorry everyone:(

Aw, sweety, we know you were just upset.

We love you, how could we be mad at you for something so natural?

Personally, I know that when I was called names, the last thing I wanted to do was socialize. First thing I had to unlearn, actually. ;-)

blossom you have nothing to be sorry for.

im sorry that you are feeling this low, please dont do anything to harm yourself. we all love you and want you to be happy. Is there anything that we can do to help ?

you don't need to be sorry.

how are you?

thanks everyone.

i'm ok.

well im pleased you are now back with us, kinda missed you

i missed ye too:(

sooooo, blossom. did you manage to go to college today ?

if not dont worry about it too much and well i hope that you feel more like it tomorrow

no i stayed home today..

and we have no college tomorrow because all the teachers and lecturers in ireland are on strike.

i went to the gym though and now i can barely move:(

aww, hun sorry your all achyfied

hope it wont hurt in the morning

did you have fun at the gym though ?

mee tooo...

hmmm i wouldn't call it fun but it kinda helped me to stop thinking so much.

i felt self conscious though because there were no other women in the gym. just me and a bunch of men..

oh, thats a shame

are you going to the gym again tomorrow, it might help take your mind off things again ?

if i can move in the morning and if i'm not too hungover i'll go:)

oh, you drinking stuff thats stronger than d.coke tonight hun ? :eek:

erm, hope you have fun

yep:)

thankssss it's making me happy:)

i'm sorry

don' t know what hapepning.

think i'm durnk but now goihn out.

very saccccccccccccccfrared right now an d on ,my wone and can't spell rioghht

why r u sorry, are you ok? youre going out??

mind won't focus fee l lonely .

very alone.

sorr ry

i'm ba d

youre not alone blossom were here with you

you are NOT BAD

You have nothing to be sorry for hun

starry , oi'm not goin gou t anymore don['t feel like it but veru drunk feel very good but lonellly

hey Jj i love you thanks oi love youl.