if she wants to put pressure on you the least she could do is give you use of the kitchen table. You are a good artist blossom, just try to tune them out, take your time, and see what you create.

This is what headphones are for, ladyblossom. ;-)

A door lock doesn't hurt, either.

Don't listen to your left-brain, it doesn't know anything about art.

it's not that easy. this is so annoying i have nowhere to work:( i just want to scream and run away:(

Mmm, well, speaking as someone who actually did that, once ...

Picture yourself outside, running down the road, screaming. How would that make anything better? ;-)

After trying it a few times, I started trying to fix the problems, because running away just postpones them.

Ive often had to do art work on the floor Blossom, could ya clear a space big enough on yer floor hun ?

scream by all means if it would make you feel better hun, but i wouldnt give ykw the satisfaction of running away.

your be ok blosssom, were there with you in our thoughts

yeah well i don't think this one is fixable. i'm doomed.

i want to go hide.

I took off once too, drunk, and I was so upset because noone came after me, so I just had to turn around and come home.

i'm sorry starry:( something like that happened to me before too..

what's not fixable?

(oh, it's ok, that was years ago)

my life.....

this stupid feeling is back again:( i want it to be gone. it won't let me do anything. it won't go away. i can't do anything because it makes me think that everything i do is crap anyway so what's the point?

Well the point is you're alive so you have to live so try to make the best of it. Tell the stupid feeling to moo off.

that won't work. it won't let me live. nothing works. i'll just have to go to bed. bye see ye later

I hope your ok Blossom

maybe you'll wake up on the right side of the bed this time

I hope you feel better blossom.

well that didn't work:mad:

What didn't work? Couldn't you sleep?

yeah i slept. it just didn't change anything..

Mmm, yeah, it usually only changes your tiredness.

World stays the same, in between.

I've heard that change comes from within, but then, why would we need piggy banks? :-)

Feel like talking about it?

there's nothing to talk about marky. i just have that bad feeling inside me again and it won't let me do anything.

Can you put the bad feeling somewhere else, for later?

How about ... jumping around like a Demented Bunny?

That helps me, sometimes. At work, I bounce a little superball with a smiley face on it, that 'finding' gave me. Same basic idea: show those bad feelings who's boss.

I'm going back and forth in my own head right now blossom, about how much control I have over my thinking and my mood. I think we have more control than we give ourselves. I think if you are able to convince yourself to try and think different it could help. I'm not sure if I am making sense, it makes sense in my head but I'm probably not explaining myself right.

i can't i've been trying. i have no control over this feeling. i think i might be suicidal.

Suicide is an awfully permanent condition to be unsure about.

Starry has a point, but it can be difficult to fight your own feelings head-on. But, maybe there's a way to go around them? What about getting up and doing something, even if you don't feel like it? It might help, and even if it doesn't, you will have done something.

i am doing something, i'm trying to paint and it won't work