are you going to bed sue?

NO - Im already in bed, havnt been up in days - severe lazyitis - its only 2;30am ish - Ive just hit my silly hour - so was warning ya - thats all

That's awesome

lol good to know sue

the paper and ceiling cat

oh yeah, (lol look at me getting back to the main topic, that's new)

someone else told me that when i first get a therapist i should stick to teh minor stuff like depression or anxiety and things likethat first and develop a trusting relationship with them before dropping the P bomb

Inf yer gonna have'ta let me know if me posting onyer blog like this ever gets annoying hun - I mean I doubt if it'll change anything - but its nice to know

That's a good idea. Maybe (when I finally get the balls to reach out for help) I can do that and so by the time I tell them they trust me when I say I'm not going to hurt anyone. Even so, I've never actually verbalized this to anyone before. I can't really imagine myself telling anyone, even a trusted therapist.

me either, but i have had the misfortune of knowing how my parents would treat me if they found out through a horrible misunderstanding a little while back

its fine sue post as much as you want

oh yeah' date=' (lol look at me getting back to the main topic, that's new)

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OK Im gonna try and be serious for a moment - it could happen

Inf when you first get a therapist, you should just take things as they come hun. In other words, speak about things that your comfortable talking about. The first session or so is usually spent just talking about nothing major, just easing you into feeling safe about discussing things.

As for dropping the 'P' bomb as you put it - you do that on your own time frame no-one elses.

There is no set time frame as to what session you discuss which issue - everyone is different - therefore everyones therapy is different also.

[really hoping im making sense here hun]

There's actually another pedophile at my church. Apparently he found God and then turned himself in for viewing child pornography. Now he's back at church. Its all very hush-hush and the majority of the congregation doesn't know about him, but my mom used to be a pastor at the church so she heard about it. The pastors are all trying to help him and stuff but there are a bunch of rules regarding his conduct around kids and stuff.

Anyway, my point is that from conversations with my parents about it, I don't think they'd ever really get it, my dad especially, they'd just think I was a freak. It is kinda nice to know that the pastors wouldn't just excommunicate me though :/

its fine sue post as much as you want

thankyou

yeah that made sense sue, thanks for that

when they even thought that i was one from that misunderstanding, they literally threatened to, as they put it... "beat it out of me" they were so hysterical i didn't know what might have happened.

when they even thought that i was one from that misunderstanding, they literally threatened to, as they put it... "beat it out of me" they were so hysterical i didn't know what might have happened.

who threatened you Inf ?

this was a while back, but it really opened my eyes to how they really feel about pedophiles in general,and the reason that they can NEVER find out.

twas my parents, they were hysterical. for once they actually agreed on something

Holy shit, that's messed up. I don't think my parents would go that far, but I'm pretty sure my mom would deny it for a good long while and my dad would think I was disgusting. They both seem to believe that all pedophiles are child molesters. Hell my dad even thinks that most male teachers (with me as the exception I guess) are probably creepers. He always tells me that I'll get funny looks when I go to interview for a teaching position at a preschool or whatever.

Perhaps in time, after I had explained it, they might come to accept it but I think they'd still always look at me as some sort of freak

pretty sure i would be disowned, they believe everything the media spews about pedophiles.

oh Inf Im sorry your parents are like that

Ehren, I dont think there is anything wrong with male teachers teaching - what ever age group.

My eldest daughter and son had a male teacher for their first years in school, and to be fair he was excellent at his job - just as good as any female teacher would of been.

If pre-schoolers is the age group where you feel you can be the best teacher you can be - then hold yer head up high and go for it

yeah ehren,

my favorite techer of all time loved his job and was dedicated to the class.

i see no problems with male teachers, sure there are a few bad ones that seem to cause the whole stereotpye, but that happens with females too

So sad. I don't think they'd kick me out but they'd freak out a lot. I'm actually not really quite sure what they'd do. My mom is a lot more open-minded then my father so she'd probably take it better but like I said, she'd deny it and not talk about it. She tends to do that when things make her uncomfortable. My father would try maybe to understand it, but I don't think he'd ever really get it. He has a lot of trouble looking at things from other people's point of view and accepting their opinions as valid if he doesn't agree with them. Its really weird actually.

i wish my parents thought the same way as yours ehren. the first issue i think i would discuss with my therapist is my family

wow...i gotta tell you guys (and godknows i'm no saint) everytime i turn around there is one guy on here telling another guy on here, that being a pedophile isnt such a terrible thing. Have you noticed that the rest of us are not chiming in? Everyone is glad you havent hurt anyone, but i think maybe you should take note of the messages P people keep telling each other verses the profound lack of positivity from the rest of the peanut gallery.