oh and sorry if someone responds and i don't respond too quickly, i am still reading my book at the moment

Glad to hear that you're getting to see your doctor. Based on my experiences wanting really badly to say something important, but awkward to my own therapist, I either say it at the way beginning or close to the end. There's usually no middle ground.

Hope all goes well at the doctors on friday Inf

So hows the book reading going hun ?

have yer managed to get past page 40 yet

Sue! You changed your avatar :eek:! I already miss Digger!

uh-hu

Digger has gone exploring with Gertie for a while, this is Toocy

hey sue and mm, right now i am on page 132, am trying to get to 149 today (the end of the chapter).

i just don't know what to tell my doctor to make sure she understands what i am trying to say. i know i am not going to mention pedophila, but im just not sure what to say?

sue, nice new picture, is Digger coming back though

I agree with Musicman, although for me I s almost always say it at the beginning. Once everything gets going I chicken out.

Good luck!

I can see two options here. The first is to do what I did by just playing off the fact that you're extremely anxious and depressed (wait, I forget: are you depressed? ) I don't know that I'd do this because you'll likely end up with a therapist who can't help you (much like my first therapist.) Now, if you simply said you were anxious, depressed, and had sexual identity issues, you'd probably be referred to a sexuality specialist.

im going to have do give this somethought later on tonight, when i get done with my reading today.

mm, im not really sure if i am or not, but if i am then im just so used to it that i don't even notice

Alright, I'll let you get back to work. I'm actually going to a concert soon, so I'm not going to be back on until later.

oh wow, lucky MM

is it the band that must not be named or someone else entirely??

You'll be ok Inf, just tell your doc what you feel comfortable sharing. Try not to put too much presure upon yourself, for friday, coz at the end of the day, you have other options available to you.

If you feel for what ever reason when you see your doc on friday that you arent able to bring up the subject of therapy - its ok. You can always see the counceler when school starts up again.

glad your progressing wiv yer book Inf

And yes, Digger will return, at a later date ~ she always comes back

I don't think you really have to tell your doctor much. I think all you have to do is ask for a referral but I've never done it before so I might be wrong.

i have kind of a bad history with her, which is making me extra nervous

wanna share with us what the 'bad history' is - maybe we can help put your mind at ease ?

well, firstly, she's just not a very nice person. i think she does it for the money and not the people. i ask her things and it seems like i get a prerecorded answer (if she even decides to answer at all, which she mostly doesn't), like she isn't even giving it any thought whatsoever.

she really pays more attention to my medical folder than what i say to her and often ignores the questions i ask her, like she is the only one entitled to asking questions and its my job to solely answer them.

and ever since she gave me those (ill call them Wacky Pills) a while back, i haven't trusted many things else she has done for me.

Can you change doctors ? Would that be more comfortable for you ?

it would, but its out of the question. she's been the doc since i was a baby, and all of the other kids in my family still use here they wouldn't change the doctor just because i feel uncomfortable with her (maybe if we all were, but not just one of 4)

Sorry Inf, I keep forgetting, that the medical system works so differently in America than it does here. Ive always been allowed to choose which doc I use. If I dont like one I just register with a different one.

Perhaps you could have a word with you parents and say that you would rather see a different doctor if its possible. I know that you dont think that would help - but you dont know unless you try.

i am actually thinking now that it would be best if i saw her, because with her at least i know a bit of what to expect and everything won't really seem so new. but again, ill have a go at these thoughts when i am done with this chapter, only 10 pages left (trnslates to i don't know how many mins, but its more than a few

is it a hard reader Inf - I know with me some books are easier to follow than others.

That's a good point, it'll be awkward but at least predictable.

What book are you reading?

my third and last one for the summer

the grapes of wrath by john steinbeck

Ah, I've never read that one. Is it any good or is it like most of the crap they make you read in school?

well the ones this year were actually all pretty good (cept for the textbook i had to read )

first i read "founding brothers" for history and part of the textbook

then i read "the great gatsby", which was actually good and made me cry a few times

then i read "animal dreams" and loved that one too

and now its this one

it is actually pretty good as of right now. i like it, granted its not the best book ever, but i really like it