Now that my name has finally been changed to blossom, I feel more invisible than ever. maybe I should change it back. I just want to say sorry to everyone. I know I'm a pain in the ass and I don't mean to be..I wish I wasn't so whiny and stupid all the time and I wish I could offer ye more support, When I think about it now, I definitely don't deserve to have such great freinds as ye, I don't even deserve to be alive. All I ever do is bring others down with me and that's not fair for them. I don't want to be like this anymore. I'm not a good person, and I never will be. The bad outweighs the good inside of me. The bad always wins. and now the good is dying, Maybe my family are right to hate me. I don't blame them. I hate me too. I don't even need to say anything - sometimes it's just my presence that bothers them. because I'm bad. even when I was small and supposed to be good my presence annoyed them. They used to slap me for what at the time seemed like no reason but now I see why. They could obviously see that I was turning bad. I can't take it anymore and maybe that's a good thing. Ye shouldn't have to listen to me. I'm sorry.