Not crazy at all, but you do need to respect your limitations. If things are too confusing, you need to very respectfully thank God for being there, and come back to ordinary reality and try later when you are stronger. You might need to ask cat what it wants at some point. But only when you are brave and respectful. Does that make sense?

still no rabbit but I keep seeing dark shadows. sometimes the shadows look like reflections in water.

Does this mean I'm a cat/rabbit person?

It sounds beautiful. And it sounds like you are being brave. State your intention again, and speak it from your heart, that you honor rabbit's visit to you, and you want to hear its message.

You could be, Blossom

I still can't see rabbit but I did see a face and a closeup of an eye whatever that means, and then the usual shadows and then around the edges started flashing black and white.

That's OK. It is very unusual to succeed the first time. You need to give your thanks and come back now to ordinary reality. It is very important to respect the limits, and I'll tell you more when you've done that.

Ok, thanks finding, I'm back to reality nowwww!

Good Job Blossom!!!!! Walk around a bit, maybe even stomp the floor, make sure you are here and "ordinary":p

Yep, I'm definitely back!!!

Awesome. This kind of religious practice requires some self discipline, and you did a great job. You have to stay respectful but brave and plucky at the same time. You have to be able to be completely sincere, but not get carried away. It can take a while to get that balance right. For the next couple of days, you could do little things to honor the experience. You could draw it, say a prayer, just breathe and meditate. If you find yourself obsessing, however, stop and do something else for a while. Does that make sense?

Yeah it makes sense:) This is kinda cool!!!! I won't be able to do it at nighttime though because that will make me go crazy and paranoid!

That's right. You are doing very well knowing your limits. Always respect that. I could picture a time way in the future when you would be accomplished enough that the nightime wouldn't bother you one bit, but that is not where you are at right now, and that must be respected.

Finding, I think you're very wise!!!

I hope you're right because I don't like being a big scaredy cat..

I have had many teachers

I used to focus on the bad stuff all the time. Turtle showed me the pattern on her shell. At that time it was a box turtle pattern, with a beautiful balance of dark shapes and bright yellow shapes. She showed me this "pattern" lesson in many ways and many times until I understood. Dark and Light are in a balanced pattern with each other. I need to see them both, not obsess on one or the other, and see that they are in relationship to each other, like a balanced pattern. It's tough to explain, but it helped me a lot.

That sounds cool. I hope it works that well for me sometime.

Well, rabbit was showing you beautiful colors. I'm sure there was a reason for that. A lot of times you could be doing something very ordinary and the meaning of something will just pop in your head, like a present. It happens more that way than by worrying or thinking hard on it.

Finding, do you go to church?

I have gone to many different churches. I am a Christian. Of course many would not understand my Native American animistic side, but there are other people like me. I do not have a conflict with it myself.

I'm a christian too and I go to church every sunday but I find other religions interesting aswel. I've never really had a say in the whole going to church thing. My parents always say that you have to be in a church to pray but I don't think this is true. I feel closer to god when I'm on my own.

I do too, Blossom. Some people might fear that part of themselves, and so maybe then it is wise for them to be in a church to pray-- I don't know, I can't speak for them. My job is to know me, and to stay as healthy as I can.

What are you going to do about food:confused::confused:

I'll probably just starve.

Oh now I'll never get to hear the rest of your adventures if you're just going to waste away..............................

I'm going to make some seed cheese.

What's seed cheese..?

It's ok, I won't waste away, I'll survive on green tea. That's about all that's left in the house!!!

I soaked raw sunflower seeds overnight. Now I'm going to but them in a blender with lemon and garlic, then I''m going to hang it to drip from a mesh bag to make it into a thick glop, sort of like cheese. It is really good and good for you. Hope your aunt will feed you soon