it is a monster thing when you feel guilty afterwards.

Well, maybe the monster is making the guilt.

What are you guilty about?

food of course!

You would have to believe that eating is wrong in order to feel guilty about it.

Do you believe it's wrong?

it feels wrong for me. that's just how it is.

Well, I'm not going to argue with you about it. You're entitled to your opinion.

It does make every single person (and all the other animals) "wrong", not just you. And to be "right", we'd all have to starve to death.

There has to be a way to resolve that problem. Can you think of a way?

i don't mean it like that. i'm not talking about the whole "food has feelings" thing.. i don't mind that other people eat. that doesn't bother me atall. i like forcing people to eat food and i'm pretty good at it too!! it just makes me feel really bad about myself when I eat.

Okay, but that makes it harder for me to understand.

Can you help me? Why is it wrong for you to eat?

i hate it. it makes me feel horrible. and i want to stay thin.

You're fighting me. ;-)

Why does it make you feel horrible? And are you really at risk for being not-thin?

i don't know:( i'm sorry. i just can't talk about it.

It's okay, sweety.

It's just that worrying about your weight even though you're not eating is a symptom of an eating disorder, and I worry more than most, about you.

you're always so nice to me malign.

i'm fine don't worry.

i did one of those bmi calculation things and it says i'm the right weight for my height, so everything's ok.

You're always nice to me, sweetheart.

My BMI says I'm way overweight; it wants me to be 150 lbs. for five-foot-six. That's never going to happen, I'm too wide-shouldered, though I can get down to 160 if I try. The point is that it's just one number to use. I'm glad that you've checked, though.

My real concern is that you can't help listening to YKW's input. I worry that you might think you shouldn't be here, and I want to make sure I get to say my piece: You take care of my Blossom, please; there's only one of her and she's precious.

thanks malign. that's nice of you to say. it's hard not to listen to her.

I know, sweety.

That's why 'finding' wishes she had a helicopter, though I'm pretty sure she'd settle for a parachute and a passing airplane.

Tell you what: for each thing YKW says that you listen to, you have to listen to one good thing about you from somebody else. Deal?

i wish finding had her helicoptor license..

it might be kinda hard to keep up with her. she's good at it!!!

I'd lay bets on me and 'finding' having no trouble whatsoever in keeping up with YKW. Just try us.

well, i'm in my room right now and she's in the kitchen so everythings ok for now i think.. what happens when ye run out of good things to say?

We won't, sweety.

Although it might make it easier if you would eat your veggies. ;-)

NEVER!!!!!!!!!!:mad:

:-)

Okay, now I know you're back.

Go play in your Indian summer! :-)

We'll still be here when you get back.

Or is it too late already? Meh. You need some fun in your life.

it's kinda gettin dark and it's not warm anymore.. saturday is supposed to be the warmest day of the wk but i'll be working...