YOU OK BLOSSOM ?

BLOSSOM I HAVE TO GO NOW TOO

BUT TAKE CARE, OK

AND HAVE FUN TOMORROW

Jj

ok bye Jj!!!!!! you take care too!

i wish i could get rid of this feeling...

it won't let me work.

huh.

my heart feels sad.

i dunno why:(

hey blossom, my heart is sad too

I'm hoping it fades a little by morning.

Did you finish your work?

is that a saint bernard puppy? they are the cutest puppies ever, really, but then they get big and slobbery

i'm sorry your heart is sad too..

no i'm still working. all the noisy people are in the kitchen again. i dunno what kinda puppy he is but he looks sad:(

i can't handle feeling like this:( i feel like hurting myself reallly badly.

I'm pretty sure it's a Saint Bernard, they have sad faces, but I don't think they're really sad.

If I were you I would go out there and start slamming shit around, maybe their tiny little brain cells would comprehend that it's two in the morning and maybe perhaps they should have a little respect for their roommate by shutting up.

Why do you want to hurt yourself?

oh i don't care anymore. i give up. my work isn't looking good anyway. why do i even bother trying? no matter how hard i try i know there'll be someone better than me. i'm just stupid. why can't i get rid of this feeling? i don't like how my moods change so quickly.i can't control it. i need to hurt myself.

i don't know. maybe it'll get rid of the sad feeling for a while?

No, I don't think so, you're sad for a reason, and hurting yourself won't fix it. I think that you need to rest a little. You've been working for hours and hours now. You can't be worried that someone may do better work than you. Who's the judge of that anyway? When it comes to art or design, isn't it all a matter of perspective?

it'll fix it for a little while. i'm not even half done. i can't rest until it's finished.

it sounds to me like they gave you too much work and too little time to complete it. It's absurd, you've been working on this assignment since you received it, it really doesn't seem fair.

this is what fashion is like. that's why i was so scared about starting it. it's supposed to be this intense.

No, it shouldn't be so intense it forces students to risk their health. That's not right. Is this assignment due in the morning?

yeah the 15 samples are due up tomorrow.

well that sucks blossom, you've got to be pretty dedicated and motivated to work as hard as you are. I'm too much of a baby for that. If it's midnight and I'm still awake I'm pissed!

Good luck with it, I'm sure you're doing a good job and have awesome designs

i'm going to bed soon. i feel like crap. see, i'm not motivated or dedicated atall. if i were i'd be staying up the whole night to finish it. yesterday i was motivated but not today. my designs are useless. i dunno.

blossom, it's three in the morning, you're more than entitled to go to sleep without feeling guilty about it. You put in your best effort, and that's all that's possible. It'll be okay blossom. Good night, sleep well.

goodnight starry:(

It's tough to learn how to take care of ourselves.... we start out thinking we aren't worth it or shouldn't need it. I used to call that smoking myself like a cigarette. Using myself up. Then we hit the body's limits and get mad. Poor body :( I still struggle with this too.... Hope your day goes OK, Blossom.