sorry blossom, hope tou feel a little better soon, have to go now, maybe i will catch you later, need to sleeeeeep, zzzzzzzz

ok bye Jj, i'm sorry i upset you.

You didn't upset Sue, little one. At one point, she misunderstood me: I was telling her how much I thought she helped you yesterday, but she read me wrong and thought I was mad she didn't help. We fixed that one a while back. She just didn't have a very good day in therapy, that's all.

oh ok. well i'm sorry anyway.

Yah, okay.

Why?

because i am.

Oh.

Can I be sorry, too?

why do you want to be sorry?

I didn't think I had a choice.

If you're sorry, I'm sorry.

I just don't know what we're sorry about.

you do have a choice.

you don't have anything to be sorry for.

So do you, sweetness, that's my point.

What are you choosing to be sorry for, this time?

i'm sorry because i'm bad and i'm a loser.

i'm sorry for being me.

But you're the only one who thinks those things, little one.

Are you saying sorry to yourself, for calling you names?

Why, who did you expect to be?

Why not just try to change to become the 'you' that you want?

no.

noone.

i'm unchangable.

did you get a pm from someone called patricia?

How do you expect to be no one?

There's no such thing as an unchangeable person, sweety. You said yourself that you're still growing.

Why is it unimaginable that you could grow in other ways than just height?

No, I didn't get a PM from 'patricia'. Why, what did she say?

she said hi i'm new

and then a quote about love

and then a link to a website.

i dunno.

i just looked at her profile and it says she joined in 2008.

Sweety, could you forward it to me? I'll take care of it. We sanitary engineers have to do something to earn our keep. ;-)

What don't you know? Whether you can grow?

Because I can see ways that you've grown just since I've known you.

i'm already fully grown.

i'm getting worse and worse.

Well, size isn't everything, sweety.

Even old people can learn, or at least, we hope we can. :-P

How are you getting "worse"? You might feel worse, if you're paying more attention to the problems, but that's also the first thing you have to do to find solutions.

i'm stuck. i'm more stuck than i've ever been. i don't know what to do. i'm scared. there is no point to my life. and i'm not finding any solutions.

Isn't the point of everyone's life, to live?

I understand that you're scared, and that you don't know what to do. But that doesn't seem final, it just seems like there's something you need to find out.

What is it that you're scared will happen?

i don't know. i don't like not having any control over my feelings. last night was terrible.

Mmm, I know, it must be tough to be so sensitive.

I do think you can learn to manage them, though. I don't think it's time to give up, yet.

What happened last night? Was it the shoe?

it was everything. i wanted to hurt myself so bad.