hatemeds Posted April 26, 2011 Report Share Posted April 26, 2011 How you doin sweet girl? Your posts are very thought provokin and sure touch a person's soul in every way. Thank you for sharing.**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted April 26, 2011 Report Share Posted April 26, 2011 chisholmDo you mind if I Private Message you, hope not being forward? few questions I wanna ask that I'd sure like your input on but not happy to post here?**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted April 26, 2011 Report Share Posted April 26, 2011 Okay take it you dont go on this forum too often? Otherwise I might feel rejected sister:(Hope you're okay?***** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted April 28, 2011 Report Share Posted April 28, 2011 Does Chisholm not post that often - does anybody know? Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted April 29, 2011 Report Share Posted April 29, 2011 She'll be back. She does take breaks, sometimes, then pops in again. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chisholm Posted May 1, 2011 Author Report Share Posted May 1, 2011 Thank you IJ and Rapha - much love to you both. Hi Hatemeds - like Luna said I do pop in now and again so bear with me. Would prefer to stick to posting if okay with you?XXChisholm Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ASchwartz Posted May 4, 2011 Report Share Posted May 4, 2011 Chisholm,Of course its ok that you post. I want to encourage you to post as much as you want.Allan Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chisholm Posted May 4, 2011 Author Report Share Posted May 4, 2011 Wow this road to recovery is a rough one. Going through a very black patch after my encounter with my ex-therapist - its right now got to the stage where sometimes I feel I dont even want to leave my house for fear of bumping into him. There has been some additional personal trauma where I made myself very vulnerable but I dont want to go into that here - but to cut a long story short, I'm kinda scraping at the bottom of the barrel right now. People tell me I have such incredible resilience - right now that sounds fairly hollow. Sometimes it just all seems like too much.It's strange how everything looks pretty black to me now, even celebratory world news - tinted lenses I guess. I know 9/11 was traumatic beyond anything but I struggle to get up and party when someone is killed - even the most vile of enemies. At times like this I'm reminded of the words of Martin Luther King: "I mourn the loss of thousands of precious lives, but I will not rejoice in the death of one, not even an enemy. Returning hate for hate multiplies hate, adding deeper darkness to a night already devoid of stars. Darkness cannot drive out darkness: only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate: only love can do that."Martin Luther King, Jr.... Funny how so many things look so depressing now - guess I know the bitter sweetness of love all too well......XX Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
finding my way Posted May 5, 2011 Report Share Posted May 5, 2011 I'm sorry things feel so low right now, Chisholm:( I hope you are able to be around some good company, even if it is nature and not people if they are not available... (((( hugs to you )))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted May 5, 2011 Report Share Posted May 5, 2011 Hey sisterDont like to hear you are hurtin in anyway - you are such a gentle sensitive person and I worry about ya darlin!! You are def on my hot favorites list - I am in love with your mind sister. I know you will pull through cos I sense your strength as well - you sure put me in my place!!!! Let us know how you are feeling today?Love ya!**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 5, 2011 Report Share Posted May 5, 2011 Chisholm, I'm sorry things are so rough right now. I hope that you are able to find a place of serenity in your struggle. I hope you are feeling better. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chisholm Posted May 6, 2011 Author Report Share Posted May 6, 2011 I have had to say goodbye to a person that I have come to love so very very much in the last few months - a person who shared so much of my pain and my joy and that loved me and knew me better than most. I was given a gift beyond measure but at the same time the parting wrenched my heart yet I know they will always be with me.I am grieving very deeply and at time like this I wonder how much more loss I can endure. Yet I know now that I have the courage and the love to sustain me.Please could I ask for a cyber hug?XXChisholm Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
malign Posted May 6, 2011 Report Share Posted May 6, 2011 Absolutely.{{{Chisholm}}} Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 7, 2011 Report Share Posted May 7, 2011 ((((Chisholm)))) Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Luna- Posted May 7, 2011 Report Share Posted May 7, 2011 and me: {{{{Chisholm}}}}and you know you can talk about it here ... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted May 8, 2011 Report Share Posted May 8, 2011 Oh sweet sweet child you sure have been havin a rough time of late. Was this person a family member or friend? Can you tell us more or would you rather not talk about it?We are here for you precious soul. Dont stop posting - im always so moved by your way of expressin yourself((((superhug))))))**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted May 10, 2011 Report Share Posted May 10, 2011 hey sisterim thinkin of you. How you feelin today? I was thinkin yes you've experienced a lot of loss but that is only cos you had so much love in the first place. There are so many people that love you - do you know and understand that?**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted May 10, 2011 Report Share Posted May 10, 2011 I was given a gift beyond measure but at the same time the parting wrenched my heart yet I know they will always be with me.This was what I learned to embrace in loss. I've always struggled a great deal with separating from loved ones, but these new thoughts have helped immensely now that I allow myself to feel this. I've probably written this here on the site many times, but it helps to remind myself of it as well. When you love, you are connecting with yourself, too. By loving another, you discover and then light up aspects of yourself through your love. Once you find your own light, you have the means to access it again and feel the connection with the person that you have lost. When I am a kind and strong person, I feel my mother's presence within. When I am an accepting person, I feel my friend's presence within. When I offer caring support to others, I feel my former therapist's presence within. Those are my gifts, but gifts that others helped me to find, and it is a place where we remain connected. The spiritual presence of others remains with us, I think, if we allow ourselves to feel and embrace our own self and the love we have to offer. When we embrace that, we love ourselves too.I am grieving very deeply and at time like this I wonder how much more loss I can endure. Yet I know now that I have the courage and the love to sustain me.I have no doubt that you do. I was thinking of you, too, and hope that you're healing. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Chisholm Posted May 11, 2011 Author Report Share Posted May 11, 2011 IrmaJean this is so incredibly beautiful and I am so touched that you shared it with me.It reminds me that I have only to seek within to find and welcome the stranger who has loved me all along.Thank you.XXX Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
hatemeds Posted May 12, 2011 Report Share Posted May 12, 2011 It is you who is beautiful Chisholm.**** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Rapha Posted May 13, 2011 Report Share Posted May 13, 2011 Originally Posted by ChisholmI was given a gift beyond measure but at the same time the parting wrenched my heart yet I know they will always be with me.I've been given that same gift recently, Chisholm. And you are absolutely correct about the heart-wrenching feeling. While you know he or she will always be with you in your heart, do you also feel as though a part of you has been torn away? That's how I feel about the parting that occurred recently in my life.You must be feeling such a breadth and depth of emotions right now, with the recent trauma of seeing your former therapist followed by this loss so soon afterwards. My heart goes out to you.This was what I learned to embrace in loss. I've always struggled a great deal with separating from loved ones, but these new thoughts have helped immensely now that I allow myself to feel this. I've probably written this here on the site many times, but it helps to remind myself of it as well. When you love, you are connecting with yourself, too. By loving another, you discover and then light up aspects of yourself through your love. Once you find your own light, you have the means to access it again and feel the connection with the person that you have lost. When I am a kind and strong person, I feel my mother's presence within. When I am an accepting person, I feel my friend's presence within. When I offer caring support to others, I feel my former therapist's presence within. Those are my gifts, but gifts that others helped me to find, and it is a place where we remain connected. The spiritual presence of others remains with us, I think, if we allow ourselves to feel and embrace our own self and the love we have to offer. When we embrace that, we love ourselves too.I agree 100%. Thank you for sharing your wisdom, Irma Jean. You are such a light for us.I have no doubt that you do. I was thinking of you, too, and hope that you're healing.Me too, Chisholm. Your sensitivity and your resilience inspire me and (judging from other posts) many others as well. I add my cyber-((((Hug!)))) to the mix.---Rapha Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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hatemeds Posted May 26, 2011 Report Share Posted May 26, 2011 It reminds me that I have only to seek within to find and welcome the stranger who has loved me all along.That is so beautiful Chisholm - kinda reminds me of this quote: "Where thou art - that - is home." Emily Dickenson **** Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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