inf are you okay hun ???

i don't even know what i should do next time. the police have already been called here before because at one time it got so loud that neighbors called the cops. both parents have what the police call "one strike". if they get to three they lose custody i have been told. at least that's what i have heard about how it works around here. two more calls and my parents are possibly removed and then what? not that i would really mind them being removed, but i just don't want to have to worry about new guardians or who would want to replace them in my family, if anybody.

Take things one step at a time Inf - okay.

If things get out of control, your first priority is keeping yourself and your siblings (if poosible) safe.

Calling the Police is nothing to be ashamed of. They are there to protect all of you. Including your parents from harm.

The thing is there is no point worrying in what may happen, as no-one can tell you - as each case or sinario is different.

right now i just feel like someone else is occupying my body. like i'm going into a dormant state and something else is taking over. this mood is what i call my trigger mood, since thoughts of all types come pouring in, even the ones i try my best to filter out come through unfiltered.

hmm, thats not good. is there something we can do to help ease this ?

Would some distraction help at all ???

How do you normally deal with feeling this way ?

my best bet is to try to distract myself from it, but im in such an advancing state right now that i actually feel like i am shutting down. i am typing slower, not really reacting as fast physically or mentally as i usually do. i am just feeling progressively weaker by the minute. im going to try to distract myself, but i don't even know if i can get pulled out of this rut rightnow. breathing is feeling weird, like theres an electrical tinge to the air.

iknow that all of this is mental, because it has happened before i guess is a sort of coping mechanism.

Hey, inf. I just got in and got caught up on your blog. Sorry this is happening. Can you play music or anything? Maybe go for a walk? Do you want to talk about it more on here or would you like us to help distract you?

Hmmm, you could be having a sort of panic attack hun. Try and breathe calmly if you can. your gonna be ok.

I could help distract you if you like, I could try and find you some music or funny pics to look at

thanks sue.

pseudo,

i feel like if i get up right now to do anything ill fall down on the dfloor.

Can you try putting your head down and taking some deep breaths? Maybe close your eyes for a minute?

What about repeating something to yourself--I know it sounds stupid, but sometimes I run the alphabet through my head--in english, then in german, then in english and so on. Sometimes just focusing on something small like that can help bring you back down.

i guess i could try reciting pi in my head.

Hmm, sometimes when Im scared I recite my fav songs out loud, or in my head. That can help

How about if we played a game of I Spy or Guess Who or something would that help you to focus on something ?

How many digits do you know pi to?

65 places of pi

wow! impressive. can you share?

You should try and put your head inbetween your knees and breathe...sounds like the start of a panic attack. panic attacks come on in different ways and are triggered by different things. After that I would suggest you try and rest. Your body has been through quite a bit today and you need to take care of yourself.

3.1415926535897932384626433832795028841971693993751028841971693993751058209749445 that was only 62 if i counted right, but its all i can think of at the moment

oops disregard that first one, i started to repeat myself

3.1415926535897932384626433832795028841971693993751058209749445 thats the real one could only think of up to like 62

not too shabby.

You are you feeling?

Hey inferiority. I just got caught up with your blog. It sounds like you're experiencing a major panic attack. Have you ever tried breathing in and out of a paper bag? I haven't had the chance yet, but my psychiatrist told me it can slow your heart rate and breathing very quickly.

progressively worse unfortunately . for a minute i forgot i was even listening to music, thats how disconnected i am getting.

I'm not sold on the paper bag idea--I think putting your head down works better, either on your desk or between your knees. Close your eyes and recite pi again.

Take some slow deep breaths and do what pseud and Cindy suggested by putting your head down. You're going to make it through this.

i think it may be a panic attack, several symptoms match up from wikipedia, except for usual time limit.

It will pass. Seriously, put your head down and close your eyes