XD my history teacher was so good last year. he had little tricks to help us remember everything. like heres an example of something he said. "remember the 3 reasons the spanish came to the new world... the 3 Gs, God, Gold, and Glory." i loved him so much

Yeah, a good teacher is crucial. I always thought I hated history. Then I had that teacher...

So what else is going on? Is your mother asleep?

yeah, and no fighting that much today, just the usual.

I'm sorry that you have to go through that. In my honest opinion, I consider it abusive. I forgot to ask my therapist today, but next time I see him, I'm going to ask him some methods to combat panic attacks. I'll share them with you.

So when are you seeing your pediatrician? Do you think your plan will work?

i am honestly starting to have doubts, since my parents don't really believe in therapy, im starting to doubt that they will even want to pay for it I am seeing my pediatrician on teh twenty somethingth of this month, not really sure of the exact date. i hope they're honestly not that stingy

I know you understand the severity of your situation, but you HAVE to call for help if things continue or get worse. It's killing your mental health, and you're probably suffering physical side effects as well.

yeah i know mm. it really does get pretty bad. i keep telling myself that i am going to do something next time, but each time, i just get freaked out so much i immediately run to the room and block myself in, instinctively.

I don't think it's safe to really do anything else when the fighting and shouting starts. When that happens, all I can suggest is to lock yourself in your room or to get out of the house. You can try reasoning with your parents another time, but from the way you've described them, nothing good will come of it. Something needs to be done if this abuse continues. You described last night's panic attack as one of the worst you've ever had. From the way you described it last night, it sounded like you were really close to fainting -- a result of an extremely severe panic attack.

Anyway, just put some thought into everything. I'm going to bed now. I hope you're night (and tomorrow) are peaceful for you.

Goodnight.

good night MM, ill probably be seeing you later on tomorrow, i have to try to get through a few chapters tomorrow.

i can agree with everything you just said.

Okay. I'm probably not going to be on past 8:30 PM, and then I won't be back on until late Saturday night. So in case we don't talk until then, I hope everything's peaceful for you.

Goodnight (again.)

Hey Inf

How are things today ?

hey sue, sorry about the belated response

things are doing fine, had a bit of a scare this morning when i thought i was going to have do a mountain of work for my english summer work, but that was fixed when i FB messaged my english teacher and she told me waht i really needed to due, and i was able to breathe a sigh of relief.

doing great right now, feel like i have no stress on me at all for the moment, hoping this will last.

I hope it lasts for you too hun. Its nice to hear your doing good

thanks sue.