Did you start thinking about your pet sheep?

thanks. yeah i don't want to feel like this anymore

that sheep has been dead for over 10 years

When you have been sad in the past, has anyone stood by you?

ye have. noone else notices when i'm sad

Growing up, it can be too much to bear alone when we are very sad. We need someone to be by us so we don't pull apart. We need it when we are older too, but it is especially important dear Blossom growing up.

well i guess it's too late now. i wish i had someone here with me right now

Blossom, can you remember other times you've felt like this, and it has gone away? You don't have to die to stop feeling like this. This kind of feeling comes and goes all the time, all by itself. Maybe you can do something to take your mind off it until it goes?

And where do you think we are, young lady? :-)

We're right here with you.

it never goes completely. and what does go away always comes back.

If you wrote that about the joy, I bet you'd get the same sentence.

It can feel too late. But it isn't. You are stuck in a part of your brain. People all over this site get stuck and need help. Each and everyone of us here with you now knows that horrible place.

no. the other day was the only time i felt properly happy in about a year. what's the point of living just for that?

it is too late for me finding. noone cares about me in reallife.

How about living for the possibility of making it twice in a year? Or hey, maybe even more? ;-)

You are learning how to get there. It is a very real and genuine place in you. If you did it once you can do it again. What you know best is this place. I used to be that way too. That isn't all there is to me, and that isn't all there is to you.

oh i dunno anymore. it would be so much easier if i weren't alive.

Not for us. We'd miss you brightening up our days.

Would it make you angry if I spoke to your abandoned self a minute, Blossom?

no i don't mind

hello blossom's abandoned self, it's me, finding. I'm so sorry you are left so alone . I want you to know that we see you. We love you very much. Blossom is having a really hard time right now. She is so tired. She just does not see a way through. It is so hard for her sometimes. It may seem like she hates you, but she is really just having a very very hard time. We are her friends, and we are your friends too. I'm so sorry for how painful it is right now.

thanks finding

Do you see her at all?

no but i can feel her inside me

Is it OK to just hold her a little or something?