Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 ya, i know what you mean. it's a raw deal. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 I should give up. I want to give up. If I quit my job I could live off health benefits. At least I can suffer in silence and out of sight. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 how's your family taking it? Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 I can't tell them, it will break my mum's heart. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 that's considerate. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 Well she is my mum Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 I just got home, I don't know what I'm going to do. Every bone in my body is screaming give up, I can hear it. My Death Drive of my ID, and the Pleasure Principle has gone quiet, like it never existed. My superego has been incognito for years so that's useless. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 would it help if klingsor keyed your boss's car? (trying to lighten the mood) Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 LOL...what is your superpower?my "superpower" is being -almost- always here. add to that frequent and often quick 'replies'. it's pathetic, i know. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 It saves lives. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Small Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 Super Member lolololololol Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 Stay.Nice poem. Id toast with you (Is my grammar correct?) But Im more of the tear shedding kind than the beer drinking kind.Despite how much I loathe myself, I cant seem to subject myself to the bitter taste of alcohol even if the effects can bring temporary relief. Lol!Hope you guys are having a better day than I am. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted September 30, 2015 Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 If he doesn't, I'll take that cat home. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted September 30, 2015 Author Report Share Posted September 30, 2015 If he doesn't, I'll take that cat home.cats are so cute. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Victimorthecrime Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 Sorry to hear the bad news Draco. Health problems are the absolute worst. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 *Sighs* Thanks Victim, I'm in a pretty bad place right now, these past 24 hours have been mentally physically excruciating. I went to see my mum this morning before work, and gave her a long silent hug. It was as warm and assuring as it was when I was just a boy. She knew I was troubled like she always does, but I couldn't give her bad news. I don't know what my future will bring, it's a bump in the road or the beginning of the end; but I'm going to keep plodding forward. I'll crawl for now, until I can walk again. Victimorthecrime 1 Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted October 1, 2015 Author Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 we're rooting for you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 I hope things get better for you. Mom's are just wonderful, aren't they? They just seem to know without actually knowing and even just their presence can be comforting. I admire your strength. Take care. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Resolute Posted October 1, 2015 Author Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 Mom's are just wonderful, aren't they? They just seem to know without actually knowing and even just their presence can be comforting.not my mom. my dad is even worse. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
IrmaJean Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 Do you have someone to talk to, Draco? I'm so sorry you are having health issues. I hope you don't feel you need to be alone with this. Thinking of you. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 Sorry to hear that, Resolute. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Small Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 @IrmaJean I have a friend that I talk to, and he's considerate enough to listen to my problems without much complaint. I like to protect my mum from bad news though, so I try to stay strong around her so she doesn't hurt for me. She's cried many a tear over me in the past when I did to open up to her, and it kills me to break her heart with these things. I know it's not my fault, but I feel like I've failed her. My brothers are textbook sons, successful, stoic and protective. Up until 6 months ago I couldn't even give her any money, not that she needs it but as a man, it's my job to help support her. My brother would give me money to give her, to save face, but he's loaded so it's the least he can do for having me put up with his first child syndrome. Finally I get somewhere, only to be derailed by my health Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Guest ChinaDoll Posted October 1, 2015 Report Share Posted October 1, 2015 Don't lose hope, Draco.I understand how you feel. I feel pretty useless myself. As the youngest daughter, I felt it was my responsibility to take care of my parents in their old age yet here I am being dependent on my older siblings. Its deflating. But I think no matter what, you're more important than any amount of money.I'll say it again. I admire your strength. Because I really do. Quote Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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